Arrietty, And That's All

Me, Yon Soo, Aubrey 

 So, first of all, I captioned my pictures... wow. Second, I love friends... another big surprise because I obviously never say how glad I am I have friends. I had such a great night last night that I had to say how thankful I was for my great friends one more time. Please bear with a run down of a few of my favorite people in this world.

**AUBREY** is a prized gem, she is the perfect person to laugh with because she has probably the greatest laugh I have ever heard and it just makes you laugh more. If you ever hear a funny quote (like on a movie or something) and you want to hear it again, ask Aubrey to repeat it because she is spot on and makes the quote even funnier. She is an amazing singer and an incredible ukelele player. If I could choose five words to describe her I would say... bright, hilarious, benign, ferocious, and hipster. 

Me, Yon Soo 

#YON SOO# is asian first of all which automatically makes her amazing. She is so very stylish, I seriously love everything she wears. Yon Soo is resourceful and smart... if you are ever looking for an example on how to take notes (like for Psychology or something) she is the one to follow. I honestly don't know what I ever did without Yon Soo. As I sit here thinking, I don't exactly remember how we became the close friends we are but I am glad that we are such good friends because she literally changed my life. Yon Soo is also an amazing advise giver, she always knows the right things to say to help you work out situations and make you feel better! I love the way she writes and I love her practicality. Five words for Yon Soo would be... style, sentiment, perspicacious, embrace, and discerning. 

Ree & Tosha

~TOSHA~ is such a true friend. Besides the fact that Tosha is insanely smart she is also a good learner. Tosha plays the piano like a goddess and she can also sing very very very very very well. Tosha became my friend in German class, she is my entertainment for those class periods that just never seem to end. Tosha is also good at advice and she listens to all of my crazy stories which is hard. Tosha is that person who you meet and you just know they are going to be an amazing mom, so caring and wise that you almost even wish she was your mom. My five words for Tosha would be: buddy, harmonious, caring, leader, and super! 


REE (>.<) is kind of intimidating and scary... and least that is what he wants you to think. :) He really is a sweet amazing person when you get to know him well. I've heard a lot of people describe him as a teddy bear and even if it hurts his dignity a little to say it... he is one. He is also a romantic which is really adorable. Ree is a genius in all sorts of subjects including piano playing. I have only heard him play once but he is so amazing. Ree is also one of my German buddies and I am so happy I got to know him this year! Five words for Ree are: brilliance, softie, entertaining, confident, and well... asian. 


In the end, I am grateful for all of these people! I am so glad I met them all this year and I am incredibly glad that they are all going on to such bright futures next year and I want to publicly and slightly awkwardly wish them the best of luck!!! LOVE YOU ALL!!! 

A Man Can't When He's Tol' To!

I hate nights when you hardly sleep at all. It takes forever for you to actually fall asleep because you are distracted by your thoughts and then you are constantly awakened by nightmares or you wake yourself up because you are so terrified of the images that taunt your mind. If this type of night was an end to a typical day, that would be one thing, but this night was an end to a long tiring and wildly crazy day. I dislike nights like that.

Last, I love Dance Company. More than anything in this world. It is great to have friends and the friends I have made this year dancing are the best ever. I have loved this year and I am so excited to make even more friends next year... The End.

Life is hard, try to live simply when you are young.

I Love You.

"I love you because you know who you are, and you know who I am and you still love me." 

"Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude. It's because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them."

Just when you are worried that you are losing someone that means so much to you, you find new people. Maybe not even find but almost rediscover. You make new friends, gain new smiles, share new laughs, cry new tears, hug new hugs, and overall just love new people and it all works out. 

I love Easter, and I love my family... and I love my friends. 

Life Update: I SAW MY BROTHER CROSS THE STREET RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have never screamed, laughed and cried so hard all at once in my whole life... How does it just happen to happen that the Saturday before he goes to Japan we see him cross the street. The extra minute it took to start my car made the difference in seeing him. Crossing the street right in front of me, smiling, waving, looking so happy and perfect and adorable. I love him so much and I could not be more proud of him. The best part was the heart sign he made with his hands, it was such a special moment. I loved it.

I appreciate the passion in this picture. The emotion caught in this picture is the reason I love dance. It is the perfect way to convey everything. The other day I was dancing in my room and it just kind of relieves you. There are those times where you dance because you have class or you dance because you are choreographing or something like that, and dance is really fun then. But then there are the times when you ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO DANCE... and thats when it is best for you. Those are the moments I live for... and I've kind have a lot of those lately... and I am grateful for it.

=To End In Style=
I always save my favorite thoughts for last. Today my favorite thoughts are about spring, and beauty, and trees, and waterfalls. Long trails, winding paths, fences, trees, brick buildings, rocks, dirt. Have you ever thought about spider webs, their beauty and their grace. I appreciate spider webs, I like how they shine when the light from the sun hits them. I like how their designs are practically perfect. Have you ever thought about silence? How silence is awkward with some people, and perfect with someone else? How conversations can be had by only saying two words? How silent touches can change the world? Have you ever thought about hearts and how they thump when you are nervous... Have you ever thought about good nervous and bad nervous?
Sometimes I don't know how to describe some things, maybe because they are too perfect to describe. I hate trying to explain confusing things and I hate feeling confusing feelings. I hate wanting something so bad but being to nervous to just grab it and get it. I wish things were easier than they always are.

Dear World, I love you. You mean everything to me. Love, Me.

Try hard not to have regrets, they are the worst.

The End.

|Call Me When You Get This|

Have you ever desperately wanted something that you know is bad for you? I am not talking about chocolate or sweets that you want to eat but know you will regret later, I am talking about deeper things. More important things, life changing decisions that will effect the way you live forever. First you reject the idea of such a life changing decision, then you can't stop thinking about it, you think of different approaches, different outcomes, different consequences, how it will really effect you, how it will really effect others. Next, you start to reason with yourself. "What is this really going to do?""Who are my actions really going to impact?""Why is this decision so important anyway?" You question yourself, and shoot out any bad thoughts and only think of the good that will come of it. You think of all the wonderful, desirable things that will come of such a controversial choice. Then you pause and think, fine, I will do it. And that's when you start to learn.

"It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential, is invisible to the eye."
     - Antoine de Saint-Exupery

"In my wildest dreams, you always play the hero. In my darkest hour of night, you rescue me, you save my life."
     - Anonymous

"Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to become lost again."
     - Anonymous

"Love is friendship set on fire."
     - Jeremy Taylor

{A LETTER TO THE PAST}

Mary Anderson: My newest Hero. 

Dear Mary Anderson,
       Thank you so much for giving us the great invention of windshield wipers. Even though my spring break was a little rainy I could still drive around town perfectly okay and safe because of your great contribution to society. I don't know if you have ever been properly thanked for this amazing idea of a windshield cleaner but if they have internet up in heaven I hope you are reading this because I am seriously so grateful for you. I am also grateful to anyone else up there with you who helped with the idea or advanced it along to greater functioning, so please, if you have some spare time, let them know how much they are appreciated as well. Thank you again, you are such a genius!
          Much Love,
                    Kristen Lohner

DEFINE: cult, love, irony, culture, socialism, meme, internet, and hipster.

It is always a comfort to know that there are still geniuses in the world. Especially the geniuses who feed off emotion to fuel their genius. I am happy to love anything anybody creates as long as it means something... anything at all! I hope that my heart will feel the need to appreciate things that have a purpose, a meaning, a cause, a passion, so on and so forth.

I have realized lately that as a high school student, your maturity is changing evolving and becoming tangible very fast. The reason we look back at students younger than us is because we feel like we are so much older, like we have matured beyond their level. To outsiders or those seeking for a debate involving high conflict, seniors looking down on the classes below them is a prejudice and simply quite a rude thing to do because, "That was you last year!" is such a prominent statement. But just today I was looking back to just last year and thinking of things I used to do, think, participate in, and so on and I realized that I have greatly matured in my life. I have learned so many lessons in the past year that make me feel qualified to be bigger and better than classes lower than me, and I am not even a senior yet!
          My actions have changed tremendously. I no longer feel the need to bash every single assignment I get in class because I have decided its not worth the energy. My thoughts have changed in the sense that I feel like this year I have become more friendly and outgoing, and I was a little more shy and shut off last year. I also feel that through my past year of education I have reached the ability to go into a higher level of thinking about life, literature, media and more. My feelings have also matured tremendously. In fact, I think that is probably what has changed the most, I have begun to realize that flinging around my feelings is not important and that not very many people care anyway. And most importantly I feel different about the people around me. I feel like I am happy to have people, rather than be annoyed by every sound they make. In random conclusion, I am different this year. I feel mature and I feel like I have the right to be aware of that maturity. I know that I still have a very long way to go but I feel like this past year I have learned a lot, and ya... that is the end of that ramble.

I thought I would add a little something to the end of this. I got a car. It's a bug. It's red. His name is Lenny. That is all that needs to be documented here.

Walk Like Matter is a Solid

My heart is thrown into the wild air,

I'm trying to follow your turning trail. 

It's hard to read your tattered lines, 

I'm amazed at your unbelievable mind. 

I'm taken backwards by your kindly style, 

Your shiny young laugh and your interesting smile. 

You Love A Lot I {two posts in a day}

You all can just wish and keep wishing that you had a sister as amazing as mine. I found all these cute old pictures that I love and I was just pondering all the things I love about my sister. She is always there for me, yes we fight but it is easy to make things right with her because she is so sweet and understanding. 

She is beautiful and she gets prettier everyday. It is amazing how time moves and changes people, I have been amazed at how fast I have grown and I am almost scared by how fast the people, especially my sister, around me grow. 

I love her, and there is not much more to say. Thanks for being amazing. 

Again. The end. 

Trashing Plagiarism

I was immediately swept away. Saying swept away is quite a cliche as is pointing out your cliches but, by any means, swept I was. Swept not this round by love or by interest itself but by mystery. This type of mystery that led me to deep interest and filled me with unspeakable love. You know that something is powerful when it has the ability to change you. When that something takes your body and soul and removes it from existence. I have spoken of passion before and I have specified my particular passion for dance, but things have changed. I no longer have just a passion for dance. I have an obsession,  an addiction, an infatuation, a fixation for dance. I am enslaved by dance and it's power. I have been completely taken over by it. I spent the best weekend of my life, hands down ever, at a dance convention.

I spent the weekend in a frenzy of hard work and extreme passion. In a place where my whole body quaked with pain until the music restarted and I began to move in time with it's notes. I could not be more happy or proud of myself after this weekend and I wish it had never ended.

There are no other words to try and explain the amazingness of what happened to me this weekend. All I can really say to sum things up is I am changed, moved, inspired, and now motivated for life.

All had been said. The End.

Interested or Invested?

Mirror on the wall, here we are again. 

Through the rise and fall, you've been my only friend. 

You told me that they can't understand the man I am, 

so ill just lay here talking to myself again. 

ALERT:
<http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2fpgpanZAw>
copy and paste this URL and go to it, now. 
Ok Go is this really cool band that deserves serious praise for their awesome music and incredible use of visuals. As soon as you watch one video you will end up browsing a lot of their songs and videos and fall in love!! They are genius! Truly though, I wish I was this creative. 


I CREDIT THIS IDEA TO MY FRIEND AUBSEYBABY... Thank you. 

This is a picture of me and my cousin Andrew reflected in a TV. When seeing our reflection he quickly stated, "Look Kristen! We are on TV!" so I told him we should take a picture and when we did he was the one who told me, "HEY! Make a funny face. These small things are the reason I love cousins. 

Ear. Pearl. Messy Hair. Late night Homework. 

 "Without you, tomorrows wouldn't be worth the wait and yesterday's wouldn't deserve remembering."

"Courage is the price that life exacts for granting peace, the soul that knows it not, knows no real ease from little things; knows not the livid loneliness of fear, nor mountain heights where better joy can hear the sound of wings." - Amelia Earhart

"If you don't know what you want, you will end up with a lot you don't."

" 'How do you spell love?' Piglet asked. 'You don't spell it,' Pooh replied, 'You feel it.' "

"in these bodies we'll live in these bodies we'll die

where you invest your love, you invest your life"

 Have you ever been thinking about someone and they wonder if maybe they are thinking about you at the same time. Maybe you waltzed across their mind as they hit yours. Maybe they are making wishes that involve you while you are dreaming stories about them. Maybe they are smiling at memories you've shared while you are giggling at precious moments that have past. Maybe they are thinking about you, maybe they are not. Maybe they are wondering if you are thinking about them while you are wondering if they are thinking about you. Maybe... just maybe.. its just a huge circle of thought that runs around and around and around. Know we are thinking. :)

People, love them.
THE END.

+Happiness, Hit Her -- Like A Train On A Track+

[Just in case you wanted some randomness today.] 

 “The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.” - Charles R. Swindoll 

I hate it when you {have} to do hard things. Especially when you really want to do that hard thing but something inside you makes you feel like you just can't. It's hard to not be able to just do what you want to because of *fear*. I dislike being pushed into things. But sometimes being pushed is what you need, even when you absolutely hate it.

 Happiness isn't always temporary. Because when you find things that make you happy, really happy, and you keep those things with you, and don't let those things fall away, you can always be happy. The trouble isn't keeping happiness it is keeping the things that make you happy.

  

love

 noun, verb, loved, lov·ing.

noun

a profoundly tender, passionate affection for anotherperson.

a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, asfor a parent, child, or friend.

a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person;sweetheart.

(used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection,or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?

verb (used with object)

to have love or affection for: All her pupils love her.

to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for(another person).

to have a strong liking for; take great pleasure in: to lovemusic.

to need or require; benefit greatly from: Plants love sunlight

to embrace and kiss (someone), as a lover.

verb (used without object)

to have love or affection for another person; be in love.

Verb phrase

love up, to hug and cuddle: She loves him up every chance shegets.

Idioms

for love,

a.

out of affection or liking; for pleasure.

b.

without compensation; gratuitously: He took care of thepoor for love.

for the love of, in consideration of; for the sake of: For thelove of mercy, stop that noise.

in love, infused with or feeling deep affection or passion: ayouth always in love.

in love with, feeling deep affection or passion for (aperson, idea, occupation, etc.); enamored of: in love with thegirl next door; in love with one's work.

Happy Valentines Day... 

Gotta Love the Cold

I might just be posting this from my iPhone right now... Which personally I think is super cool. This takes my love of blogging to a whole nother level... Hey guess what! Nother is not a word yet we say a whole nother all the time. Guess that's not grammatically correct... Funny to think about, maybe I am the only one that says a whole nother...

"When I was 5 years old, my mom always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grow up. I wrote down 'happy' they told me I didn't understand the assignment, I told them they didn't understand life." - John Lennon

"I did not direct my life. I didn't design it. I never made decisions. Things always came up and made them for me. That's what life is."
- B.F. Skinner

Sometimes it's hard to make decisions and you can't stop deliberating about which good thing you should choose and then something happens that lets you know that you obviously want one of the something's more than the other something and it should have been completely evident all along. Then you realize that it should have been a lot easier to make the decision in the first place... And you have been missing out on the right decision because of your failure to just decide... Rough realization...

I am kind of liking this iPhone blogging thing... I wish I had known about this app sooner...

I am in love with the movie "Confessions of a Shopaholic" it is just so funny... If you haven't seen it your missing out, I might of seen it like 10 times well... Last night made it 11 :) I really enjoyed watching it with my aunt and grandma while tying a quilt, it made the movie even more enjoyable!

Well... I am starting to maybe feel tired... I might need to sleep now...

Gnight sleepy... :)
Lots of... Today... Funny...
K... Bye...

[OIC]

I have a serious love for this picture, I initially took it to see what my french braid looked like but then I decided that it was accidentally an art piece, staring me. That sounds super weird but let's think about this... What is ART anyway?

I've seen all types of art in museums that had been worshiped and praised and it is something a 5 year old could have been perfectly capable of. There has been lots of debate on this subject and I don't really even have the expertise to put my say in the matter but I would like to think that my idea of art is anything that means something to you... yep I think that anything at all that has some sort of meaning to you... Is your ART...

"We have been asking as usual the wrong question. It does not matter a hoot what the mockingbird on the chimney in singing. The real and proper question is: Why is it beautiful?"

-Annie Dillard

I also decided I like this picture, also of me, that shows just my eyes... without makeup, something about it just makes me smile with glee.

"When faced with two choices, just flip a coin. It works, not because it settles the question for you, but because that brief moment when the coin is in the air, you suddenly know what you are hoping for."

Did you know that Aubergine is another word for eggplant? I am very excited about knowing this information... try not to steal my smart thunder just for this moment.

LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT...

"Straight up, now tell me do you really want to love me forever? Oh, Oh, Oh

Or is it just a hit and run?"

Question of the day:

If you are told a secret, is it fair to tell one other person who is not connected in any way, on the condition that they never tell it to anyone else?

Quote of the day:

"Do you wish to rise? Begin by descending. You plan a tower that will pierce the clouds? Lay first the foundation of humility."

- Saint Augustine

Lately all I have wanted to do is nothing, but all I really do is everything I am thinking about not wanting to do. What is it that motivates me to keep doing my homework, day in and day out? I can tell you that it is officially not an interest in what I am doing, except for maybe my psychology homework. I kind of enjoy that part of learning.

Well, the end.

Bottle It Up

"TIME YOU ENJOY WASTING, IS NEVER A WASTE OF TIME."

"There'll be girls across the nation that will eat this up, babe I know that it's your soul but could you bottle it up? And get down to the heart of it, no, it's my heart, your straight out of your luck, don't make me tell you again... My love love love love love... love love love love love..."

There are still people trying way to hard to be themselves, I am included in this group...

My dog is sitting next to me making rhymes in her head... okay I made that second part up.

Pretty sure this past weekend was a great weekend, even though there was drama and anger underneath it all there was absolute love for everything that happened. I am so happy at this moment in my life that I can't even depict the feelings.

I like it when I am successful, in all aspects of life. Especially school because even though it doesn't seem like it now I know that it will all be worth it in the end. At the same time, I want to be successful in short terms things, even if those things aren't going to last forever, I still want to strive to love them and cherish them. Don't ask me what I am talking about because I don't really know.

I am trying hard not to leap because I want to keep my feet on the ground. I'm not quite ready to fall, I am still not sure if there will be someone to catch me. I don't want to die from completely falling because of my complete trust. I will work out the kinks then find my path, then fall into the arms of that thing I need.

" IF YOU LOVE TWO PEOPLE AT ONCE, CHOOSE THE SECOND ONE, BECAUSE IF YOU HAD EVER TRULY LOVED THE FIRST, YOU WOULDN'T HAVE FALLEN FOR THE SECOND."

- JOHNNY DEPP