{Something about being true to yourself... just works.}

You say that you love the rain,

but you open your umbrella when it rains.

You say that you love the sun,

but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines.

You say that you love the wind,

but you close your windows when the wind blows.

This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.

- William Shakespeare

Today has been... a Monday. Sleep in a little, school, lunch, school, dance, family home evening, homework... well blog first, I decided this is kind of like my journal so it kind of makes sense that I give it a little priority. I like this blog.

"I wish I was a little bit taller, wish I was a baller, wish I had a girl who looked good I would call her, wish I had rabbit in a hat with a bat and a 6-4 impala."

I am still pretty satisfied with life today, which is kind of a surprise because I have actually been satisfied for the past three days, thats a pretty sweet record, I might have even been satisfied before that, it just took me a bit to notice that there wasn't anything pestering at me.

This picture is one that I took that was not set up but happened by accident. As I went to the bathroom today during school, I noticed this paper in the sink and I flipped it over. I saw that it said superficial and the setting of it on the drain really spoke to me so I pulled out my phone and took a picture. This moment made me glad for my good camera on my phone because I love taking pictures and if this had been blurry, the message wouldn't have been half as satisfactory. Overall, don't be superficial, and life will be overall, better, at least if you are overall not superficial.

Just in case you were curious, here is a quick definition:

superficial:

1. adj - concerned with or comprehending only what is apparent or obvious

2. adj - of little substance or significance

3. adj - of, affecting, or being on or near the surface

I will let you choose which definition you like best and you can interpret the message for yourself.

You are my Manhattan from the sky,

You look so neat and tidy when I'm way up high,

But I know your streets are lined with a felt fineness inside, I wanna come down and walk around, you're mine.

I don't know what prompted me to put those lyrics maybe because I like Manhattan, maybe because I like the imagery, that's probably the right guess because when you think about it, everyone is a Manhattan from the sky, they look simple and easily predictable from far away, but when you jump inside and walk around and learn and investigate, and love, and adventure, and care, you will find out so much more than that first judgement you made from the sky. I guess what I am trying to say is love people, walk around and find out more about them, make them part of your life, but in the end make sure you actually care or none of that investigation is actually worth it. Because what is anything without care.

Take an emoticon for luck. :)

(Turn around)

Every now and then
I get a little bit lonely
And you're never coming round
(Turn around)
Every now and then
I get a little bit tired
Of listening to the sound of my tears
(Turn around)
Every now and then
I get a little bit nervous
That the best of all the years have gone by
(Turn around)
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified
And then I see the look in your eyes
(Turn Around, bright eyes)
Every now and then I fall apart
(Turn Around, bright eyes)
Every now and then
I fall apart
(Turn around)
Every now and then
I get a little bit restless
And I dream of something wild
(Turn around)
Every now and then
I get a little bit helpless
And I'm lying like a child in your arms
(Turn around)
Every now and then
I get a little bit angry
And I know I've got to get out and cry
(Turn around)
Every now and then
I get a little bit terrified
But then I see the look in your eyes
(Turn Around, bright eyes)
Every now and then
I fall apart
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then
I fall apart
And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
'Cause we'll never be wrong
Together we can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
(All of the time)
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
(Forever's gonna start tonight)
Once upon a time
I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

That was a little long... but totally worth it.

Love life, peace out, take care... pray for snow.

Sincerely, Me and only Me.

P.S. I am going to go do my homework now...

P.P.S. I like living, it's one of the best things that has ever happened to me.

P.P.P.S. lets be honest, I just wanted to make it to 3 p's

P.P.P.P.S. hahahaha this has got to stop, bye!

Saved for a Later Date

Today was a pretty good okay day, I decided that church really isn't that hard to sit through. I also realized that I love inside jokes that make you smile so big and laugh so hard you want to cry. I also decided that recently, life couldn't get much better, I am at peace, even with the homework I am always doing. And last but not least, I decided that I need to be a more relaxed person. That's the end of decisions for now.

"Cough wheeze, hark, swallow, wheeze wheeze, sneeze cough hark, spit... Excuse Me"

Falling in Love, is such an easy thing to do...

birds can do it, bees can do it, we can do it, lets get to it...

Let's fall in love.

Only Because I Love Lists:

• Cheer
• Shout
• Paint
• Food
• Cookies
• Hands
• Shirts
• Worry
• Friends
• School
• Party
• Surprisingly, nothing more to add to this list.

Jack Sparrow.... that's all I have to day. Well I guess I should also say... "BUT WHY IS THE RUM GONE?!?!?!" Now that's all...

People say I make strange choices, but they're not strange for me. My sickness is that I'm fascinated by human behavior, by what's underneath the surface, by the worlds inside people. - Johnny Depp

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a game and love is a riddle I don't know where to go can't do it alone I've tried, and I don't know why....

Fantastic Mr. Fox:

I will admit that when I first saw commercials for this movie way back when it came out I was blown away by thoughts of wow this movie is probably really stupid. So I avoided the many chances I had to watch it until I was with my friend the other day and she said, Hey we are going to watch Fantastic Mr. Fox, wanna watch with us, I was inclined to say yes even though I immediately thought, oh dear here we go. I was very glad I said yes however because I found that though the movie has little point and it is totally random and scatter brained, I found it rather hilarious. Maybe it was just because I was in a happy mood or maybe it was because I was feeling rather like an easily amused child that day. All in all, fantastic Mr. Fox is a winner.

I might just really like different fonts today....

Also yesterday: I went to the Timpview vs. Salem Hills state volley ball game. After and intense battle consisting of Salem winning the first two matches, we taking the second two matches, and the final intense game where we pulled through and won out of the neck to neck battle, I was so happy I could barely stand it, nothing could have made me happier in that moment. I really enjoy watching volleyball, I am sad that I am just realizing this, but it's true.

I already posted today but oh well...

All I have to say is that it is strange that watching TV makes some people so excited and ultimately really happy when they could be doing much more and donating something to the world. I mean I am on the computer but at least I am being creative and writing.

THE END

Cosmic Love

It's almost crazy how I base my life off of songs. Am I the only one who gets a little disappointed when I can't turn a corner in my car to a cool sound in a dub-stepish song? I though I might be...

" A falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes
I screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
But then, it stopped, and I was in the darkness,
So darkness I became

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

I took the stars from my eyes, and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart"

I must say...

• I love my cousin Danielle.
• Lots of colors make me giddy and dizzy.
• Trains are cool.
• Psychology is eye-opening. Especially when you realize you are a dysfunctional adolescent.
• However you can't really be dysfunctional as an adolescent because they are all dysfunctional.
• Inspiration comes easy when you aren't looking to hard.
• Human interaction is one of the most powerful things on the earth.
• I wish my phone number was 801-123-4567
• I like making people laugh.
• I like it when people think I'm funny.
• I am drawn to people that out funny me.
• I am complex.

There's the obvious end to that list.

Dost thou love life?
Then do not squander time,
for that is the stuff life is made of.
Benjamin Franklin

Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.
Helen Keller

Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt you represents determinism; the way you play it is free will.
Jawaharal Nehru

When I'm dead, I don't want a funeral. I wish that everything I did was perfectly planned to turn out well, but it's not.

That's probably all...

Bottle It Up

"TIME YOU ENJOY WASTING, IS NEVER A WASTE OF TIME."

"There'll be girls across the nation that will eat this up, babe I know that it's your soul but could you bottle it up? And get down to the heart of it, no, it's my heart, your straight out of your luck, don't make me tell you again... My love love love love love... love love love love love..."

There are still people trying way to hard to be themselves, I am included in this group...

My dog is sitting next to me making rhymes in her head... okay I made that second part up.

Pretty sure this past weekend was a great weekend, even though there was drama and anger underneath it all there was absolute love for everything that happened. I am so happy at this moment in my life that I can't even depict the feelings.

I like it when I am successful, in all aspects of life. Especially school because even though it doesn't seem like it now I know that it will all be worth it in the end. At the same time, I want to be successful in short terms things, even if those things aren't going to last forever, I still want to strive to love them and cherish them. Don't ask me what I am talking about because I don't really know.

I am trying hard not to leap because I want to keep my feet on the ground. I'm not quite ready to fall, I am still not sure if there will be someone to catch me. I don't want to die from completely falling because of my complete trust. I will work out the kinks then find my path, then fall into the arms of that thing I need.

" IF YOU LOVE TWO PEOPLE AT ONCE, CHOOSE THE SECOND ONE, BECAUSE IF YOU HAD EVER TRULY LOVED THE FIRST, YOU WOULDN'T HAVE FALLEN FOR THE SECOND."

- JOHNNY DEPP