I'm Flying Away to Nevereverland

I feel very happy in this moment

It happened, I went snowboarding. It was the best moment in my life, well maybe not the very best but it is now very high on my happy day list. I needed this day, I took the ACT this morning which was slightly uneventful and kinda boring but it was way better and went faster than I thought, and I think my essay was actually really good. Then, even though I only went for two hours... snowboarding was all I needed to help me feel perfect today. I am so happy, I can't even explain the good feeling that comes with this amazing feeling of perfectness. I literally felt like I was flying while riding the slopes today, it didn't matter that there wasn't very much snow or that it was pretty darn icy all that mattered is that I was there and I made it to my perfect little place up at Sundance and I got to do something that I absolutely love. {Quote}: If I died snowboarding, you could honestly tell everyone that I died happy. - Jeremy London

My gangster boy. 

So, when you are going snowboarding for the first time of the season... you have to pick the perfect person to go with you. Even though the choice was slightly forced at first I realized that I wouldn't have picked a better person to be with today. Justin is amazing, I told him today that I lucked out in the little brother department. Which couldn't be more true. When god put our family together I am almost sure he was thinking... "I am going to give Kristen the most perfect little brother who will always be there to love and snowboard with when life gets crazy." I am infinitely grateful that thought he had and I am glad he followed through. It hard to describe Justin sometimes, when you just want to ride the lift up the mountain in total silence and not feel burdened because your not saying anything or feel like you have to talk about random things, you want to ride the lift with him. We honestly had a ride up the whole mountain without saying anything but, "Second stop right," and "Ya." It was so perfect, I love him so much, I hope he knows it.

Justin is just a Boss Gangster in his spare time, yes, you should be jealous.  

These are our cool faces... I know. 

{A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prerogative of the brave.}
{A man is but the product of his thoughts what he thinks, he becomes.}

Mohandas Gandhi

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Sometimes I wish that people wouldn't constantly misinterpret peoples motives. I also wish people would stop trying to think they always know what's best for me. I acknowledge the fact that sometimes, they might know what would be the best decision for me to make and they think that they are just protecting me but I feel like I need to just decide things for myself, and overall... be myself and not what everyone else seems to want me to be. Maybe I will find that I am not a bad incomplete person when I am just myself I have just needed to let it out. 

{{{{{I feel like this post is slightly inconsistent with my normal removal of self I am when I write on this blog, but I don't really care I feel like it needed kind of a change.}}}}} 

To End: 

100 Things I am Grateful for this Holiday Season: {In no specific order, and notice things not people, they will not be included in this list... refer to my list a couple weeks ago.}

1. My Soul, spirit, life, body and self. (K fine, but that's the only person.)
2. Dance
3. Snowboarding
4. Music
5. Psychology Class
6. English Class
7. T-shirts 
8. Jeans
9. Socks
10. Sweatshirts
11. Guitars
12. Thoughts
13. Diet Dr. Pepper
14. Crunchwrap Supremes
15. Sour Punch Straws
16. Computers
17. iPhones
18. Showers and Tubs
19. Television
20. Radio
21. Cars
22. Heating
23. Blankets
24. Pencils
25. Paper
26. Crayons
27. Pianos
28. Shoes
29. Hair
30. Christmas Eve's
31. Romantic Comedies
32. Superheros
33. Grocery Stores
34. Houses
35. Turkey
36. Fruit
37. Bread
38. Scary Movies
39. Sting Rays
40. Board Games
41. Blanket Octopuses
42. Oceans
43. Nature
44. Secret Places
45. Nights
46. Boats
47. Lakes
48. Vacations
49. Feelings
50. Emotions
51. Art
52. Paint
53. Earrings
54. Necklaces
55. Books
56. Thoughts
57. Toys
58. Ideas
59. Flowers
60. ...another person type thing... Old People
61. Balloons
62. Opposition
63. Challenge
64. Goals
65. Sparkles
66. Costumes
67. Sun
68. Moon
69. Stars
70. Internet
71. Laptops
72. Clocks
73. Whiteboards
74. Thrift stores
75. New York
76. California
77. Beaches
78. Big Cities
79. Higher Education
80. Personal Heroes 
81. Snow
82. Rain
83. Overcast Days
84. Candles
85. Keyboards
86. Presents
87. Being Childlike
88. Pictures
89. Cameras
90. Scissors
91. Crafts
92. Colors
93. Smells
94. Eyes
95. Ears
96. Smiles
97. Places
98. Worlds
99. Antiques
100. And you know what, I am going to end with people, even though I said this was things, I am grateful for people, everyone that is around us and what they contribute to the world. I love everyone and I am grateful for everyone. EVERYONE. 

There are many more things, I could probably go on forever there are so many things that are in this world. These are just a few things that I pulled off the top of my head right now. 

THE END. 

Written by Kristen. Long post.