Yes... Boys too.

Berry Pie is splendid especially with friends. All regrets are baked slowly into that pie until they are forgotten.
Frances Avery is a good gal. 

My Test 

Those days when you are doing test correction and you got only a little less than half of the questions wrong are the worst. Then you make it to the one and only page where you got all five questions on one page rights and what do you know! The person who corrected you test congratulated you with a large YES! accompanied by an exclamation point. Thanks, Michael. You were appreciated at around 1 am the other night.

 MORP WAS A BLAST! I don't want to document everything because that kind of makes it less fun and special plus there is too much to say and my words wouldn't be able to give it credit. Pretty much, I am glad that I went and I am glad I asked Talmage because, hey he is a pretty cool guy. Plus I got a comfy shirt out of it. Hehe. 

 You know those people who are just worth it? My sister Susie is the best for sure but I have already tributes her. The person I really want to talk about who is more than worth it is Amy Gill. I love her. Almost too much. She is crazy amazing. Who wouldn't want to have a friend like her. Smart, beautiful, kind, thoughtful, athletic, funny, hyper, helpful. She is one of the best of the best of the best. Ya, she is probably actually the best.

Have you ever done something spontaneous when you are really tired or explained something to someone  when you were really tired and pretty much out of it and then been totally mad at yourself for saying something stupid? Because I feel like a lot of people have been doing that lately. I feel like I am hearing all of these decisions people have made when tired and then regretting it later... I will admit I have been victim to this situation and also have made sleepy decisions as we will call them. I think the solution to this is simply sleep on decisions and don't get irrational. The End.

Dreams
Thats where I have to go
To see your beautiful
Face anymore I stare at a picture of you
And listen to the radio
Hope, hope there's a conversation
We both admit we had it good
But until then its alienation I know that much is understood,
And I realise.. 
If you ask me how I'm doing
I would say I'm doing just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out, and I sit down at a table set for two
And finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say I'm..
Not over you,
Not over you
Damn, damn girl you do it well, and I thought you were innocent
Took this heart and put it through hell, but still your magnificent
I, I'm a boomerang, doesn't matter how you throw me
I turn around and I'm back in the game, even better than the old me
But I'm not even close without you
If you ask me how I'm doing
I would say I'm doing just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out, and I sit down at a table set for two
And finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say I'm..
Not over you
And if I had the chance to re-new
You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do
I could get back, on the right track
But only if you'd be convinced 
So until then.. 
If you ask me how I'm doing
I would say I'm doing just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out, and I sit down at a table set for two
And finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say I'm..
Not over you
Not over you
Not over you
Not over you

Interested or Invested?

Mirror on the wall, here we are again. 

Through the rise and fall, you've been my only friend. 

You told me that they can't understand the man I am, 

so ill just lay here talking to myself again. 

ALERT:
<http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2fpgpanZAw>
copy and paste this URL and go to it, now. 
Ok Go is this really cool band that deserves serious praise for their awesome music and incredible use of visuals. As soon as you watch one video you will end up browsing a lot of their songs and videos and fall in love!! They are genius! Truly though, I wish I was this creative. 


I CREDIT THIS IDEA TO MY FRIEND AUBSEYBABY... Thank you. 

This is a picture of me and my cousin Andrew reflected in a TV. When seeing our reflection he quickly stated, "Look Kristen! We are on TV!" so I told him we should take a picture and when we did he was the one who told me, "HEY! Make a funny face. These small things are the reason I love cousins. 

Ear. Pearl. Messy Hair. Late night Homework. 

 "Without you, tomorrows wouldn't be worth the wait and yesterday's wouldn't deserve remembering."

"Courage is the price that life exacts for granting peace, the soul that knows it not, knows no real ease from little things; knows not the livid loneliness of fear, nor mountain heights where better joy can hear the sound of wings." - Amelia Earhart

"If you don't know what you want, you will end up with a lot you don't."

" 'How do you spell love?' Piglet asked. 'You don't spell it,' Pooh replied, 'You feel it.' "

"in these bodies we'll live in these bodies we'll die

where you invest your love, you invest your life"

 Have you ever been thinking about someone and they wonder if maybe they are thinking about you at the same time. Maybe you waltzed across their mind as they hit yours. Maybe they are making wishes that involve you while you are dreaming stories about them. Maybe they are smiling at memories you've shared while you are giggling at precious moments that have past. Maybe they are thinking about you, maybe they are not. Maybe they are wondering if you are thinking about them while you are wondering if they are thinking about you. Maybe... just maybe.. its just a huge circle of thought that runs around and around and around. Know we are thinking. :)

People, love them.
THE END.

Why Wear Cute Clothes? We Are in Disneyland!!

 2 Years is a lot like 24 months, similar to 104 weeks, and a close to 730 days. As the number get larger you realize that 730 days reminds you of 17,520 hours... kind of like 1,051,200 minutes and/or 63,072,000 seconds. Who knows how many breathes that is? How many times a heart might beat, how many times tears will fall, smiles will be worn, rage will be shed, wishes will be cast, letters will be written, words will be said, feelings will be hurt. How many of those 63,072,000 seconds will be spent in happiness? Sadness? Anger? Fear? How many of those 1,051,200 minutes will be spent loving? Kissing? Sharing? Eating? Praying? Cleaning? Listening? How many of those 17,520 hours will be spent working? Serving? Playing? Learning? Teaching? Caring? Hoping? Missing? How many of those 730 days will be spent advancing? Changing? Traveling? Evolving? How many of those 24 months will be spent in different seasons? Moving? Growing? Pretending? Being Real? Those two years can change a lot about a person.

If I was forced to choose one picture to sum up my Disneyland experience... this would be it, hands down. 

 Michael Jackson + Dancing + Singing + Crazy Costumes + 80's + Interesting Characters + Pure amazingness
CAPTAIN EO

 Thank you God for giving me good people. I honestly don't know how to explain how profoundly grateful and lucky I am to be surrounded by the most choice individuals on this earth. Not only did I get to spend some really great time in Disneyland with girls that just let me join their group... but I am also grateful for all my amazing continuing friendships. I hope they all know how much I love them and I can't wait to continue meeting new people because it is the best thing in the world.

"Hold it in, hold it in!" 

 Just try to make me more happy then I am right now. I dare you! In fact I would make a bet on that because I know it's impossible. How did I get so happy, what did I do to deserve this happiness.

Smiling as I write this.

The End.

+Happiness, Hit Her -- Like A Train On A Track+

[Just in case you wanted some randomness today.] 

 “The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.” - Charles R. Swindoll 

I hate it when you {have} to do hard things. Especially when you really want to do that hard thing but something inside you makes you feel like you just can't. It's hard to not be able to just do what you want to because of *fear*. I dislike being pushed into things. But sometimes being pushed is what you need, even when you absolutely hate it.

 Happiness isn't always temporary. Because when you find things that make you happy, really happy, and you keep those things with you, and don't let those things fall away, you can always be happy. The trouble isn't keeping happiness it is keeping the things that make you happy.

  

love

 noun, verb, loved, lov·ing.

noun

a profoundly tender, passionate affection for anotherperson.

a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, asfor a parent, child, or friend.

a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person;sweetheart.

(used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection,or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?

verb (used with object)

to have love or affection for: All her pupils love her.

to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for(another person).

to have a strong liking for; take great pleasure in: to lovemusic.

to need or require; benefit greatly from: Plants love sunlight

to embrace and kiss (someone), as a lover.

verb (used without object)

to have love or affection for another person; be in love.

Verb phrase

love up, to hug and cuddle: She loves him up every chance shegets.

Idioms

for love,

a.

out of affection or liking; for pleasure.

b.

without compensation; gratuitously: He took care of thepoor for love.

for the love of, in consideration of; for the sake of: For thelove of mercy, stop that noise.

in love, infused with or feeling deep affection or passion: ayouth always in love.

in love with, feeling deep affection or passion for (aperson, idea, occupation, etc.); enamored of: in love with thegirl next door; in love with one's work.

Happy Valentines Day... 

Kiss Me Then I'll Wake Up

"A big part of math is simply knowing your calculator." - Mrs. Taylor 

 It's funny when people are walking down the hall all alone and for some reason they decide to walk the other way and, instead of simply turning around and going the other way, they feel like they need to say something out loud to the random passers to explain why they look like a total idiot for going in the wrong direction. -- "Oh, ya!" -- "Hahaha, other way..." -- "Oh darn! My violin!" -- "Whoops, wrong direction..." -- "Agg, other way! --- Those are just a few of the things I have heard this week.

 "He who has a 'why' to live, can bear with almost any 'how'." - Friedrich Nietzsche

"Be who you are, and say what you feel. Because those who mind don't matter and those that matter, don't mind." - Dr. Seuss

"Bad memories are like bullets. Some whiz by and only spook you. Others tear you open and leave you in pieces."

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they are right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself." - Marilyn Monroe

" 'Tell me one last thing," said Harry, 'Is this real? Or has this just been inside my head?' 'Of course it's happening inside your head, Harry, but why does that mean that it is not real?' "

"You can't just sit around and wait for things to happen. You have to make things happen. Begin with no fears and end with no regrets. What would you do if you weren't afraid? if you knew you couldn't fail? In life, sure, you get second chances, but at least make your first shot count." - unknown

"ELIZABETH: John, I counted myself so plain, so poorly made, no honest love could come to me! Suspicion kissed you when I did; I never knew how I should say my love. It were a cold house I kept!" - The Crucible 


"What do we live for if not to make others lives easier?"

 I love the teachers who conveniently plan their end of chapter math tests to be on a Friday. Some of you might think, "Oh that stinks, a Math test on Friday?!" but I see the hidden treasure... NO HOMEWORK OVER THE WEEKEND!! Sounds perfect to me!

I feel like most of the material put into this world is ridiculously overanalyzed. Writing, Music, Art, Dance, Historical Events, Language/Sayings, and even numbers. Sometimes I think that the population of the world is too busied by a search for a deeper meaning in everything. I think that things do have a deep meaning and it should be recognized to some extent, but why should we spend so much time analyzing others deep meanings and messages when we could be creating our own.

Why is being literal considered so rude and/or ugly? While being figurative, evasive and a bush beater is pretty and clever and elegant. I wish people would/could just say what they mean.

Oh, Sweet Mystery

"Don't feel bad if people remember you only when they need you. Feel privileged that you are like a candle that comes to their mind when there is darkness."

"We're all a little weird. Life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love." - Dr. Seuss

"Love is like two people holding a rubber band, we pull, then when one lets go, it's the one who hold on that gets hurt."

"Not everything that can be counted counts and not everything that counts can be counted." - A. Einstein

"Never let the things you want, let you forget the things you have."

"It's not how much we do, but how much love we put into the doing. It's not how much we give, but how much love we put into the giving."

"Sometimes the strongest people in the morning, are the ones who cry themselves to sleep at night."

I've Tried to Hard to Try

Charlie and the Chocolate factory is a good movie, I haven't watched it lately and I haven't even been reminded of it recently that movie just randomly popped into my head. The newer version of this movie is not very good, and it slightly ruined my love of Johnny Depp so I dislike that version, I do however really like the old one, even though the most touching and message giving part of the movie is at the end, my favorite scene is the Candy Man scene. That song has a great ability to get on your nerves and get stuck it your head and I hope that the person who wrote it is regretting just a little bit that he wrote such an annoying song. However, the endless display of different types of candies in this scene has never ceased to amaze me. All the kids licking, chewing, sucking, and enjoying all that candy has always made me a bit mad because I was not one of the kids chosen to participate in all that delicious looking candy eating. I have always wanted to be in that scene. Or the other scene where they are in the Wonka factory and strolling through the land of candy, including the chocolate river. Well, I just got back to writing this and forgot where I was going with this, something about loving candy. Nevermind that. 

List, having another list obsession wave: 

• Christmas is over, and I have to go back to school in 5 days, back to working everyday, back to normal life, I am going to miss this break more than any break I have ever had. 
• I wish I could reset my life, back to it's old settings, even restarting all the way back in Kindergarten, not just because I loved Kindergarten, but because then I could stop myself from making all the random weird decisiosn myself has made. If that makes sense. 
• I feel like I can't gather my thoughts, nothing will come together and be organized, it needs to come together and just be right. 
• If it were up to me, we would all always be in constant communication with each other, and then things would be better. 
• I would also be able to read minds. 
• END OF LIST

My mind is to crazy and unorganized to write right now, I need to solve someones problems for them, that usually helps me feel better. I like me. I miss my best friend. I am going to watch a movie so I can escape. BYE. 

The Answer is the Square Root of 3, Obviously.

{Brace Yourself for a Long One}

This post is going to be lengthly for a variety of reasons, (one) I haven't written for a while, (two) theres is lots on my mind, (three) everything I have heard and thought since the last time I wrote has been significantly blog worthy. So enough of talking why it's going to be lengthy... here it is.

 --"Lately I have been more and more depressed about school work. Besides the fact that I have absolutely no motivation to do it, when I go into a class to take a test, I feel like I know nothing. I am ever so amazed by how much I don't know about a subject I am being tested on. I feel like I am losing my educational drive to finish anything and I just want to quit school and move to a far away fairytale land where everything is perfect and no one has to work. All in all, I have an over bearing amount of work to do and no motivation to do it." - Written Yesterday- Now, today, I have everything done, and life is so much better. Way less stress.

 I think I have discovered something. I think what people need to realize is that everything, everyone, every story, every idea, every feeling, every everything is deeper than it seems. We walk around thinking we know things and really, we know nothing. This is why we have arguments, cruelties, and much more problems in this world, because everything is deeper than it seems and we, as humans, are not mature enough to handle it. Sometimes I wonder, what are we all doing here. It almost like we are all just running around like chickens with our heads cut off in a chaotic world full of so many things that are horrible. We all just conform to what seems best for us. What gives us our ideas and our thoughts and feelings. sure we learn, but where did the learning and ideas all begin? Where to our new ideas stem from? Everything is deep. Hard to think about.

 I don't like it when people take traditional logos and try to make them look more new age. It's unfortunate, for example, to go to disneyland and only find crazy colored & sparkled new characters splatted on every t-shirt you see. I would prefer a classic white, maybe gray, shirt with the original character stamped on the front. I have also seen this in my favorite I {heart} NY shirts. There are now new colors, fancier styles, new logos, and more to confuse the shopper and brainwash them into getting something "cute" instead of a classic. If that;s what they want, that's fine I guess. But for me, I prefer the classics, the simple originals are always my first choice.

[POEM]

Can we go out for a walk, 

even though it's getting dark, 

we can stroll around the park, till daylight come. 

I can teach you how to fly, 

we can sing and laugh and cry, 

to nieve to figure out why, we're so in love. 

Now that things aren't confusing, 

and nobody is still using, 

it is you I am choosing, and it's okay. 

With you here... Today. 

 "The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, not the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes when you discover that someone else believes in you and is willing to trust you with friendship." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"You don't have a soul, you are a soul. You HAVE a body." - C.S. Lewis

"Society is constantly pulled away from important things by the superficial." - Mrs. VanOrden

"What do you have to wake up for?"

 I think that one of my desires in life is to be different. I haven't decided yet whether that desire is bad or good. My current decision on the issue is that the desire to be different is in that gray area between a bad and good desire. For I believe that no one is bad enough to be making a good decision to change themselves to total difference, and no one is good enough to be making a bad decision to switch to the bad side.. if that made any sense. I think that if we all have some desire to change somethings, particularly the bad things... that is overall a pretty good desire. So does this mean that because I want to change completely that I am overall a bad person, trying to change to be good? Maybe, but to me that is very debatable. Maybe my desire is to make my seemingly bad traits good and my pretty fair traits even fairer. I think that overall my desire to change those things is a good desire.

 Simple Puddles 
I feel a need to trust in you
and follow everything you do
to follow you out to the shore
and continue asking for just one more
to love until all light fades
then cherish items in summer haze
but what if feeling was never there
we were only driven by nothing to share
then maybe simplicity is just better
we don't always have to be together
I don't just want to waste my time
trying to hard to make a climb
so patiently I'll sit and wait 
and hope you ask before it's to late
the truth lies flat and still cold
like dark iron strong and bold
through we still haven't found that iron thing
we can still teach each other how to sing
and even when words increase in length
I will stand with precious strength
how I've stressed to many points 
and spent every of the worried coins
to end so soon seems hardly fair
but the question is, why would we care?


    

I love family, and as painful as they might be I also enjoy traditions. Our fruit basket tradition for example is a really great one. As much as I dislike all the assembly, and delivery and stress of the whole process, the whole idea of hanging out fruit for Christmas is really cool.

 "BUT I CAN'T! I'M JUST A TOW TRUCK!" 
-Mater
When I am reincarnated as a talking car, I am going to live in Radiator Springs and be best friends with Mater and Lightning McQueen, and marry the Volkswagen that sells organic oil. That's all I have to say about that.

 Human {TOUCH} :
Have you ever noticed that there is this little thing called {touch} that we all crave for. From brushing hands, arms, or shoulders to holding hands, to sleeping or crying on a shoulder. From comparing hands with someone to feel their warms hands. A high five or fist bump, cuddling, punching, patting on the back, wiping a tear or eyelash off a cheek. We all want to touch other humans to bond and even learn more about each other. 
{inspired by E.C.P.} 

 I THOUGHT ABOUT THE ALPHABET


Anytime that I think deeper
Butterflies fill my stomach
Carry on with hopeless
Daydreams and be
Evasive
For what will happen when dependence is
Gone. Sometimes
Happiness
Isn't far away. We can choose to 
Jump like a confused
Kangaroo. Then discover for yourself, what
Life is really al about. 
Many things may crowd your life but
No one is important as you.
Open your heart to new ideas and
Ponder
Quietly, what you must do. For
Real life isn't far away but 
Serenity is closer.
Time again comes to call. 
Underneath the bridge we will sit. 
Vent emotions in your own
Way and artificially play your 
Xylophone, for lack of words is all
You'll have. Take my life, acquire my 
Zeal and care for what you think. 

Birds flying high you know how I feel
Sun in the sky you know how I feel
Breeze driftin' on by you know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good
Fish in the sea you know how I feel
River running free you know how I feel
blossom in the trees you know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good
Dragonfly out in the sun you know what I mean, don't you know
Butterflies all havin' fun you know what I mean
Sleep in peace when day is done
And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me
Stars when you shine you know how I feel
Scent of the pine you know how I feel
Oh freedom is mine
And you know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

== Feeling Good - MUSE 

TO END SUCH A LONG ENTRY I WANT TO SAY A COUPLE MORE THINGS:

• Christmas is in 5 days
• I miss the simple younger days

BE REAL, 

Kristen 

THE END.