Just When I Thought I Was A Wizard

"No matter how much you try to hide it, I know you are thinking about me. I know it's hard for you like it's hard for me but why don't we just except it and move on." -- Anonymous 

My Grateful List

Friends

Dance Company

Cars

Sun

Cell Phones

Fruit

Trees

Love

Passion

Dance

Secrets

Speech

Bodies

Ideas

Music

Art

Family

Writing

Balloons

Sugar

Beds

Blankets

Lips

Noses

Teeth 

Eyes

Arms

Legs

Feet

Hands

Ears 

There is obviously more but that's kinda just what I have today... 

 "Fella gets use' to a place, it's hard to go," said Casy. "Fella gets use' to a way of thinkin' it's hard to leave." 

 So I got my blood drawn today and let me just lay it out frankly, It was scary. It hurt a little and the whole time the needle was in my arm I was stressing a little bit. In the end it was fine, I was most worried about getting fait and passing out and that didn't happen so it was okay. While I was getting "interviewed" in the back room the nurse made and interesting comment to me. She said, "It's strange to me how people don't spend the time getting to know people when people are so fascinating." First of all, I love that word fascinating because it seems like a very good word to describe my feelings toward people. Second, I bonded with that nurse at that moment. I was saying it out loud before I could think it when I blurted, "I KNOW! I AGREE! People are so amazing!" My comment must have been a little loud because the room got pretty quite and she let out a little giggle like she was surprised at my enthusiastic response. Even though that conversation didn't go on much longer I felt a special connection with this nurse who I had never seen or talked to before and I probably will never see or talk to again. But I am glad she appreciates people, I kind of wish more people appreciated people.

--No more talk of darkness,
--Forget these wide-eyed fears
--I'm here, nothing can harm you
--my words will warm and calm you
--Let me be your freedom,
--let daylight dry your tears.
--I'm here with you, beside you,
--to guard you and to guide you...
--Say you love me every waking moment,
--turn my head with talk of summertime...
--Say you need me with you now and always...
--Promise me that all you say is true
--that's all I ask of you
--Let me be your shelter
--let me be your light
--You're safe, No one will find you
--your fears are far behind you...
--All I want is freedom,
--a world with no more night
--and you, always beside me, to hold me and to hide me...
--Then say you'll share with me
--one love, one lifetime
--let me lead you from your solitude
--Say you need me with you here, beside you...
--anywhere you go, let me go too
--Christine, that's all I ask of you...

Trashing Plagiarism

I was immediately swept away. Saying swept away is quite a cliche as is pointing out your cliches but, by any means, swept I was. Swept not this round by love or by interest itself but by mystery. This type of mystery that led me to deep interest and filled me with unspeakable love. You know that something is powerful when it has the ability to change you. When that something takes your body and soul and removes it from existence. I have spoken of passion before and I have specified my particular passion for dance, but things have changed. I no longer have just a passion for dance. I have an obsession,  an addiction, an infatuation, a fixation for dance. I am enslaved by dance and it's power. I have been completely taken over by it. I spent the best weekend of my life, hands down ever, at a dance convention.

I spent the weekend in a frenzy of hard work and extreme passion. In a place where my whole body quaked with pain until the music restarted and I began to move in time with it's notes. I could not be more happy or proud of myself after this weekend and I wish it had never ended.

There are no other words to try and explain the amazingness of what happened to me this weekend. All I can really say to sum things up is I am changed, moved, inspired, and now motivated for life.

All had been said. The End.

Sunday Best

Sometimes, magically magical things happen and you are so happy you don't even know what to do with yourself. It doesn't even have to be a big event, just some little something to make you smile. Smiling every day is good for you, so these little things are really good for your health. When you think about it that way... why wouldn't you want to have magically magical things happen everyday? I would want them to...

27 days... I just get more and more excited for snowboarding everyday. There are only a few people in this world who probably fully understand this insane excitement. I am really just exploding with pure excitement, this is going to be a really good season.

This is an excerpt from my recent Psychology paper that talks about my middle childness, I looked up a character description of a middle child and it fit me really well:

I am the second oldest of four. My family order goes boy, me, girl, boy. I consider myself the middle child and after looking up the description, I realize that I fit it really well. It says I am guaranteed to be the opposite of my older sibling which is totally true, almost anyone that knows both of us on a personal level would probably agree. I also feel like my younger siblings get away with a lot of things that I used to get punished for. It also says that middle children don’t share their thoughts or feelings a lot and have a type of outlet to let these things out. Many times when I am sitting in classes where there is an open discussion I tend to think of comments but hardly ever actually speak, my outlet however is dance where I let out all my emotions and consider it my time to “speak”. It also says that peer groups are more important than family to the middle child, which directly applies to me, I spend a lot more time with friends and their opinions and influences are far more important in my life. Other things that it says that I agree with are I can read people well, I tend to be the peacemaker and I see all sides of situations, I am independent, inventive, and will have great aspirations. I am surprised at this description because I think it fits so well.

Well I don't have much more to write about today. So, THE END...