The Weeping Prince

"You can tell he is the bad guy because he smokes big fat cigars." - LK
"Just because you had something tragic happen to you doesn't mean you are a good public speaker." - ES
"I can buy it!!!! I have forty frikin dollars!" - JL
"Oh, I was expecting you to say something deep." - CM
"How do you get a severed limb when you are swimming?" - MJ

Sometimes moments happen and as soon as they occur you know that after that moment you will never be the same. There are a lot of life changing moments in a day, things that define you, shape you, create you,  but the events that make you sit back and think, My life will no longer be the same, are the truly mind blowing ones.

The other day someone told me they love how my mind works. What's that supposed to mean? How does my mind work. I mean I have noticed I am different from everybody else but... isn't everybody? I have always questioned how my mind works though. Sometimes I wonder why I over think and complicate everything. I also twist ideas and solutions like knots until they can't be untangled. I hardly forget anything and I am actually rather observant. Oh and here is a secret! Sometimes, when people tell me something they have already told me, I pretend they haven't told me before. I am not sure if that is for my benefit or for theirs but I usually remember what people tell me, especially when they are important to me.  And, my brain doesn't shut off. I am usually thinking of five things at once and I can tell you what you are saying to me even when I am thinking about something totally different. And if I have listened to a song once or twice, I have the majority of the lyrics memorized. I like my brain.

"If you love me, here's what I'll do...
I'll take care of you."

Words. Fail. Me.

"This very secret you're trying to conceal, is the very same one that you're dying to reveal."
-Feist 


"Spalatin, there are two ways to say no to someone you believe to be more powerful than yourself. The first is to say nothing and go on merely doing what you were doing before, and pretend that you never heard. And the second is to say no in such a kind and thoughtful way it befuddles them. Naturally, if both these strategies fail, there is nothing but to relent. Or to fight: And of corse, if you decide to fight, you also have to decide to win." - From the movie "LUTHER"

There are lots of things in this world that make absolutely no sense. One of those things is the fact that we, as humans, tend to care about everything. Now, that might not sound like a bad thing especially because a lot of people, me included think it is very important to care about things, especially when those things are important. But there are some things that we don't need to care about because, frankly, they don't matter. It is when we begin to care about those things that there is a problem and that is when things don't make sense. So therefore we really need to stop caring about stupid things that don't even matter, even if they seem to. The end. Doesn't matter, let it float away, because it doesn't matter. The end. Again. 

Always listen to your heart, because even though it's on your left side; it's always right.

Depths of Inspiration

Been up all night, staring at you, wondering what's on your mind. I've been this way with so many before but this feels like the first time. You are the sunrise to go back to bed, and I want to make you laugh. Mess up my bed with me, kick off the covers I'm waiting. Every word you say I think I should write down... I don't wanna forget come daylight.

I like the idea of being perfectly happy all of the time. But then again we always here that there is opposition in all things and if there wasn't opposition, then what ever the things you love is, here happiness, then the thing you love wouldn't be as obviously easy to love. So if there wasn't sadness, anger, hate, misery, anxiety, or other negative emotions, happiness wouldn't be as valuable in your life. I am happy most of the time and I try to make others happy but when it comes down to it if I wasn't sad every once in a while, technically, I would never be happy.

 I really appreciate people who actually care. I think I have talked about this before but in all honesty, this subject is really important to me. What is life without caring about something. And what is the point of doing anything in life if you don't care about what you are doing. For instance, what would be the point of me just aimlessly thinking and typing on this blog if I didn't actually care about what came out. I hope that everyone that does everything they do in their life, with a lot of care. When you do care about something, and that something is ruined in some way, still care, it's okay to be sad. Never say, "I don't care," just because something doesn't work out the way you would have wanted it to. Then all your care just goes to waste. Please care, it's important. 

I am one of the most extremely lucky people on this earth. It is crazy how true this is. I get every single thing I could ever need and everything that I could ever want as well. I am so grateful for everything I have and I am even more grateful for the people that have given me these things. With Thanksgiving coming up I have really been thinking about this and I marvel at all of the things I have. I will write more about this later... 

Hold me closer one more time, 
Say that you love me in your last goodbye, 
Please forgive me for my sins, 
Yes, I swam dirty waters, 
But you pushed me in, 
I've seen your face under every sky, 
Over every border and on every line, 
You know my heart more than I do, 
We were the greatest, me and you, 
But we had time against us, 
And miles between us, 
The heavens cried, 
I know I left you speechless, 
But now the sky has cleared and it's blue, 
And I see my future in you, 
I'll be waiting for you when you're ready to love me again, 
I put my hands up, 
I'll do everything different, 

A quick list to end the day:

I love the winter.
I can't wait to go snowboarding.
Family is coming this week and I am really happy about this :)
I am so excited to eat this Thanksgiving
Only 2 days of school this week!!! Holy Yay!
I want to do something really fun this weekend.
I like people.
I still wish I could read minds.
Really badly...
Today is Sunday
Today is happy.
The End.